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2019 Resolutions: I’m coming for ya!

Sure, I failed my 2018 resolutions and I’m sure I’ll fail with my 2019 goals, but at least I can say I’ve made an effort to change and do better. That’s better than being unhappy as a stick in the mud, with no drive or will to improve whatsoever, right?

Just like last year, I’m giving you the list, and then getting in depth below:

  1. Lose 30 pounds (which would put me at around 120)
  2. Record 3 total videos each week (one per channel)
  3. Read 50 books – trades and graphic novels included
  4. Make a task list every. single. day!

Four goals, not too difficult, right? Well, we’ll see. Now, to the nitty gritty.

FIRST GOAL: Lose 30 pounds

I’m in the 150 range, so I think 30 would be a healthy amount to lose to get me to a starting point where I can start focusing solely on strength and muscle building. My current state of chronic pain doesn’t allow me to do much weight training as I’d like. Every time I want to dive back into lifting, I get a few days in, a couple of weeks if I’m lucky, and then my body starts reverting into that “hell no, you need to rest for a month” stage, which causes me to slip into depressive, though functional, states.

I should be meeting with a doctor this month, so my intention is to bring up my goal of losing 30 pounds and see if there should be any adjustments to that. If there is, I’ll update you guys. If not… I’ll still update you guys as often as my butt can get on here. Clearly, that is a challenge.

SECOND GOAL: Record 3 videos per week (one per channel)

This one will be met with some friction, I already know. I take a long time to edit even just a 10 minute video because I have an entire house to keep clean, 3 kids to keep happy, well-mannered, and healthy, and having a social media presence is sort of required if I want my channels to grow. I’m hoping that with a goal of ONE video per channel instead of two per channel, it’ll give me a chance to focus on my home life, social media presence, and also work on the quality of my content, rather than me just trying to push out content for the sake of content. If that makes sense.

With the growth I’ve seen in the last two weeks on my discussion channel, I’ve purchased a new mic to increase the quality of the videos… for some reason my webcam’s mic just doesn’t pick up sound as well.

THIRD GOAL: Read 50 books – trades and graphic novels included

Last year, my reading goal was 25 books, which I exceeded by 3, if we’re just counting novels and not graphic novels, comics, novellas, etc. So why not double it and give myself a bit of a challenge.

Speaking of challenges, I want to incorporate the 2018 Read Harder challenge into this 50 book goal, which you can find here! Thanks to the overdrive and hoopla apps (and our frequent library trips), this could serve as a much more realistic, solid resolution.

FOURTH GOAL: Make a daily task list

I did this for months in 2018 and it helped me stay on top of our home, though I didn’t always get to everything. It tapered off in the summer, and started up again when we moved into our new house. I’m hoping to keep to a DAILY list this year, to maximize my productivity, and minimize my anxiety.

This year I’m hoping to throw caution to the wind and be unapologetically me, without worrying about the judgment of others because let’s be honest, not everyone has a goal to focus on. Let them eat cake and judge.

Let’s go, 2019!

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Motherhood Depression

We’ve all heard of post-partum depression and while I’ve never dealt with that, I have dealt with depression my whole life, and depression as a result of being a mommy. Before you twist my words, let me explain what I mean by that.

Being a mom is already a taxing, and thankless job. Yes, I’m saying it is a job because it is hard work! When I became a mother for the first time, I was not together, my anxiety was absolutely through the roof, and I felt completely unprepared. It didn’t help that I was the almost on my own raising him. Point being, it’s work!

Lately there’ve been a few celebrity suicides in the news, and I think it’s important to point that out regardless if they’re parents or not, because the root cause of it is depression. Post partum depression is not uncommon – and if you’re dealing with that, I urge you to try your hardest to reach out.

I made a friend in the past couple months who I’ve gotten close to, and she’s a mom as well. One of the main things we’ve been able to bond over is depression. When you’re a mom, there’s a lot of judgment – not just from other parents, but of complete strangers, exes, exes’ new beaus, etc. It feels like the list goes on. It doesn’t matter what we do, someone is going to think we’re doing it wrong and that can weigh heavily on a parent.

Additionally, when you’re a working parent, it’s hard to find time to be active, keep up with household chores or repairs, keep the kids happy, socialize with your own friends, etc. All of those things can play a role in depression.

I know there are those who think depression is all in your head (um, yeah, that’s why it’s called a mental disorder), but if you see a friend who seems off, please reach out. Depression makes it very difficult for those suffering to reach out, so it’s important for us to help our loved ones!

Here are some helpful phone numbers, I urge you to copy and paste them if you know of anyone in need of help!

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-784-2433
NDMDA Depression Hotline – Support Group 800-826-3632
Suicide Prevention Services Crisis Hotline 800-784-2433
Suicide Prevention Services Depression Hotline 630-482-9696
Child Abuse Hotline – Support & Information 800-422-4453
Crisis Help Line – For Any Kind of Crisis 800-233-4357
Domestic & Teen Dating Violence (English & Spanish) 800-992-2600
Parental Stress Hotline – Help for Parents 800-632-8188
Runaway Hotline (All Calls are Confidential) 800-231-6946
Sexual Assault Hotline (24/7, English & Spanish) 800-223-5001
Suicide & Depression Hotline – Covenant House 800-999-9999
National Child Abuse Hotline 800-422-4453
National Domestic Violence Hotline 800-799-SAFE
National Domestic Violence Hotline (TDD) 800-787-3224
National Youth Crisis Hotline 800-448-4663

Bridal Boot Camp: Check In #2


What a long week it’s been! We spent the better part of the week at the hotel and it was an amazing change of scenery. Sometimes it’s good to get away from the monotony of every day life for a little reset.

We went swimming every single day (and a couple of nights as well), and we made some friends – I’ll have a vlog up for you guys later, I recorded a lot of videos. Despite my husband having to work still, even he felt like this was a nice getaway – he invited his coworkers over to grill and swim with us. This little staycation gave us a taste of what it’ll be like at our new house!

Now to the progress/setbacks:

Despite being out of the house, I still wanted to get my workouts in and eat as close to my “diet” as possible. I took measurements on Monday and noticed how my body has stayed within an inch or two of what those measurements were, for a few months with very minor fluctuations. My most successful month this year has been January because of how restricted my diet was – I don’t mean I wasn’t allowed good food, but I definitely limited myself to no outside food (no chips, no fast food, no added sugar, etc.).

I got my juices in each day – though I completely forgot my Greek yogurt at home, so it wasn’t as thick and smoothie-like. The groovy thing about the hotel was that it was fully furnished – no, I mean, FULLY furnished! Microwave, blender, washing machine and dryer… everything! We managed to stock up the fridge with tons of goodies for everyone, including some salads that my husband picked up on the way back from work!

As for my workouts. I did a little bit of everything, but I wanted to focus on my midsection a little more than everything else – so while I still did some simple arm and leg work, I worked on strengthening my core, and some back stretches as well.

My overall loss in the past week has been 3 inches! I’m quite proud of myself, I must say! Most of the loss came from my legs, but 1/2 an inch was around my hips so I’m pleased with that.

My back pain hasn’t entirely improved – it was good and then Thursday it was just awful, and after coming back to the house, the first morning felt better and it’s been downhill, so I’m going to try really hard to do at least 10 minutes of yoga + stretching twice a day. Fingers crossed and if you have any suggestions, please comment below!

All in all, a successful week and I hope to see more of that this summer. Let’s get to it!

 

Bridal Boot Camp: Check In #1 (oops)

We’re on a roll – much later than expected, but hey, we’re working on it. I’ve finally managed to measure myself this month (it’s been a lot busier than I could’ve predicted, but the boys have been having a blast).

In this post I mentioned to you what my plans were with diet and exercise. Back pain is still pretty bad, but it’s at least steadying and not getting worse. My diet has been pretty good, I’ve lost a teensy bit around my belly, a bit of a stubborn fat area.

My thinking was that I would just eat whatever I wanted on Sundays, and the rest of the week would be straddling the line between strict and intuitive. Well, it turns out aside from the mimosas I had with one of my lovely friends (still not too shabby), I ate intuitively! My stomach led me to say no to a bagel and cream cheese, but to have a strawberry kale smoothie instead. Dinner was hearty, but still pretty good all things considered!

I feel pretty confident with what this month can bring me, or what I can take from it, rather. I’m actually going to be taking a little vacation with the boys while the house is worked on, and I’m really excited for the change of scenery. We’re staying in the same city, but even still, it’s at least closer to civilization!

I’ll check in with you guys when I can and let’s hope for a groovy mini-vacay, and a spectacular, successful June!