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Quick Update!

This week is the last week I’ll be doing “measure-in Mondays”. No, I’m not going to stop tracking my progress, but I AM switching from measuring on Monday to measuring on Friday!

My husband brought up a really good point on tracking progress, and how the weekend may come with some bloat (I’m terrible at tracking my water which tends to result in bloating).

Since today is Friday – and officially the last day of Summer, woohoo, bring on pumpkin flavored everything – it’s time to measure! The past three weeks I’ve seen an overall loss of 2.5 inches. Since Monday, I’ve seen a loss of 1/2 an inch.

My Fall quarterly goal (September/October/November) was to lose 2 inches around my hips, and I’m half of an inch from meeting that goal. It’s not even October yet!

Keep in mind, I haven’t really restricted anything except for not eating Taco Bell at the frequency I had been, which was twice or thrice a month. I also don’t generally eat red meat, but I had steak last week and I had regular bacon yesterday morning.

I’m also getting at least 6 hours of sleep at night, I’ve been doing stretches in the morning and evening, I’m tracking my water and meeting that goal almost every single day, and I’ve removed a lot of stressors that prevented me from losing fat this past summer.

It’s a slow process, but it is still going! Thank you for all of you who have stuck by me on this journey, and have an amazing weekend!

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Lessons We Learn From Autumn

In a couple days, Fall will have arrived! This season is one of my favorites for a number of reasons:

  • Scratch baking/cooking: pumpkin pie, turkey (though I haven’t mastered it completely), fall cookies, apple crisps, mashed potatoes, hearty soups
  • Pumpkin flavored everything!!!
  • Fall crafts: creating wreaths, hand turkeys, carving pumpkins
  • Hayrides, corn mazes, haunted houses
  • Halloween!!!
  • Thanksgiving!!!!
  • Cold weather (or cool weather if you live in the desert like we do)
  • Hot drinks: cider, cocoa, PSL, tea
  • Cozy clothes

But this season serves an even greater purpose – and no, I’m not talking about how it’s finally cool enough to run without the discomfort of external heat! Fall serves as the perfect metaphor for self-improvement and moving on.

The most obvious part of Fall is change. Leaves turn colors, the weather shifts from hot to cool, the nights get longer and the days shorter. Nature welcomes the change. What we can learn from nature and its constant shifts, is to embrace the changes.

Maybe a relationship or friendship ended, you got fired, you found out a friend is moving away, or you have to move away. No one said change was easy, and if Fall could speak, I’m sure it’d say how brutal it can be. But sometimes you just need to ride it like a wave.

Another thing Autumn teaches us is to let things go. Trees lose their leaves, but they do not wilt and die as a result of the loss. They regrow! I had a talk with my oldest son recently. He said he wished he could forget something mean he heard someone say. I told him, it’s important that you don’t forget, but you can forgive – just let go of the anger or hurt, and move on, focus on the good. Mean people are usually just mad at themselves and it has nothing to do with you or anyone they’re mean to.

I don’t forget every vile thing someone has said to or about me, or the gossip another person tells me. But I’ve learned that these are not the people who will stick around in the long run. They aren’t going to serve as anything more than lessons on the human condition.

Nature shifts so drastically in the seasons. Leaves change their color, they fall, and then the trees grow new leaves, sometimes even fruit! Without Autumn and Winter, we wouldn’t have Spring and Summer. Every season serves a purpose, which shows us that there are greater things to come. There are bigger and better things on the horizon, you just need to push through the hard times.

This season, try to appreciate the little things. Treat yourself, take a moment to enjoy the smell of rain, make yourself a cup of steaming hot chocolate, snuggle up with a book or Netflix, spend a little longer in the decorations section than you normally would, sniff the hell out of those fall candles! We all have responsibilities, but make sure you’re taking care of yourself as the season changes. Don’t let anyone shame you or drag you down for enjoying life!

 

The Perks of Mental Growth

I read a quote the other day from Dita von Teese and I absolutely loved it. I’ve seen it around for a few years now, but it’s just really starting to hit me on how accurate it is.

This just hits me on so many different levels. I try my best to be positive and send good vibes out into the world, but if I have a bad day or write something negative on my social media, there have been people who said I’m fake because of that.

A lot of what I do, I do it for myself, for my family, my friends. I don’t generally do things to get on anyone’s good side. I don’t feel like that’s necessary. If my energy attracts you, then great. If not, that’s fine too.

What I think a lot of folks have a hard time grasping is that you don’t need to be friends with everyone. There are people who don’t like Cassey Ho, who is sunshine in human form, because they think she’s fake. She’s human, and I’m sure she gets sad or mad sometimes, but that doesn’t mean all the times that she’s doing her blogilates she’s fake. She’s better at compartmentalizing those negative emotions.

I’m not saying you should be rude or mean, or even ignore those who you know don’t like you, or don’t want to be around you. That’s not necessary, you can still be cordial. But if there’s one piece of advice I can give to you guys, it’s not to compromise yourself to fit what you think others want from you. I’m sarcastic sometimes, I’m extremely positive sometimes, I’m a disciplinarian sometimes, etc. I’m not going to stop being me just because someone else doesn’t like me.

 

Relapsing | Part of the Process

It’s Friday, or French Fries-Yay!

If you haven’t kept up with my youtube channel, you may not know of the struggle I’ve been going through as of late, and I really don’t go that in depth on my most recent video. So here’s my chance to explain how things are going, in real time. If you’d like to check out the video before continuing, it’s right here:

 

I’ve found that I’m still having these very destructive, disordered thoughts running through my brain. Whenever I have to decide what to eat, it feels like there’s this violent onslaught of extreme self-deprecation. Last night, I wanted to make something easy after my workout, so I made a protein shake and had a small bowl of pasta. I really wish I had taken a picture so you could understand what I mean when I say I’m very conscious of how little I’m consuming, but I’m struggling to actually go through the act of consuming.

I know better than to expect my mind to fix itself over night. I know better than to assume it’s going to just fix itself altogether. I’ve been preoccupying myself with my three separate youtube channels, my novel, my reading goals, and my family. I’m constantly working at building my empire, so much so that when I finally managed to stop, this very morning – staring at the poptart that my son didn’t finish, debating whether or not I really wanted to put something like that in my body – I realized that the very foundation of my empire is based around health, physical and mental.

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After being pregnant and giving birth twice – the latter being the healthiest mental state I had ever been in – I never thought I would relapse. Understand that I don’t mean to trivialize those with substance abuse problems; that’s a huge battle in itself for so many people. I’m not really sure what the proper term to use would be when it’s been more mental than physical.

I know that this still wasn’t as eloquent as I’m trying to convey, but it’s the best I can do at the moment. I expect a lot of frustration, anxiety, and self-deprecation in my future, but know that it’s not a battle I’m going to just roll over for, just because the opponent seems so daunting.

I’m in this battle to win. And I will.